Postcards from the Imagination

In more than a year and a half of blogging, I don't think I've ever regretted anything I've posted as much as yesterday's little freak-out. Though I wasn't conscious of it the time, I now realize that we were just days away from sending out 'Save the Date' cards for our wedding, and that probably had something to do with it. *Cringe* Just thank your lucky stars I'm not going post pictures of the make-up sex.

Speaking of nuptuials, Seth and I, much to my relief, have decided to call off the supersized mega-traditional wedding. It wasn't an easy decision, as we'd already booked a venue, caterer, and DJ--but our plans for two seperate ceremony sites had fallen through, and the whole thing was beginning to feel less than meaningful for both of us. For my part, I felt as though the marriage piece was being overwhelmed by the party planning, and I'd been largely tuning out. To Seth's credit, he realized how unhappy the whole thing was making me and told his parents we'd rather not go through with it.

Instead we're thinking about doing a very small, informal ceremony--immediate family & friends only--on this beach, at night, under so many stars you can barely see the spaces between them.

Afterwards, dinner in Provincetown.

Now this is something I can really get excited about: because rather than being the stars of some enormous pageant, we can simply be ourselves; because our exercising the right to marry in Massachusetts doesn't mean depriving someone else of that right; because the Cape's where we fell in love; because there's something truly transcendent about this spot; because we'll be able to return to it on anniversaries and it will be exactly as it was the night we were married; because if anything doesn't go off perfectly, it will only add to the charm; because we can put the whole thing together in less than a month; because maybe, just maybe, it will allow us to take a honeymoon that puts us back in Paris, where we were engaged, on our first day as husband and wife.

And that's just off the top of my head.